Forgiving....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Forgiving.......I have to have the heart to forgive and I hope you can understand that.....I know the wrongs done and I will never forget it but please understand my heart......

To forgive one should......I guess....Please guide me in the right direction.....I try and be a the best person I know how to be....Please let me be doing the right thing.....

I love you my babes......forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Mold exposure.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I have been exposed to mold again...   It is here inside the house in my bathroom window......It is something else......

I just cannot believe I am going through this again.....Its crazy......There are no words for it.....

Please be with me and help me through this.....Don't let the kids get this is all I ask.......It is scary to be sick like this......

I love you my babes....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Please guide me ......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Please guide me and what to do....I just wish you were here.....Thank you for visiting me in my dreams....Not sure what dream meant but I know you will show me in some way.......

I truly miss you and my heart is broken forever.....I just wish you were here and everything would be great....

I miss you babes......

I love you my babes...forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Don't know what to do.......

Pictures of us.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

There is never a moment I don't think of you.....You are my everything.....I need to focus on my writing and get some more books done......

Its hard to focus....I am so scared and don't know what to do anymore.....You are my guiding light and I know you will show me what to do.......

I love you my babes.....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

My love.......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

My love......you are my life......you always will be.......I feel an emptiness that puts a void in me......I try to be happy but it is so hard to do.......

I miss you more than there are words.........I just wish you were here and holding me........

I love you my babes.....forever.......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Day after Christmas....

Your box we had made just for you

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Well its the day after Christmas and the pain is still the same........I miss you so much and the pain never goes away....

It never will....My heart is empty except for the love of you and the kids.....There is a hole that cannot be replaced.....You are my one and only......

Please guide me on what I should do.......Help me to pick the road I should travel.......We hope you liked your presents we got for you

Here are pictures from yesterday of the kids.....Shae loved all her stuff and so did Erik....I know you would say that I ruin them but its because I love them so.....as I love you.....

I love you my babes......forever.......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Eik

Merry Christmas in Heaven.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Merry Christmas in Heaven......I know you are with us today also.....Please know we miss you so much......

You are always with us and Shae will be opening your presents just like always.....You have quiet a few presents that we got for you......

I know you will always love us and you will always be with us......You are everything to us.....No matter what please know you are my love.....

I love you my babes...forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Christmas Eve......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Its Christmas Eve and you know how the kids are......Cant wait to open a present......Its hard without you here sharing everything with us....

Hearing your laughter and watching your eyes sparkle as you watch the kids opening their presents.....

We love and miss you so much.....There are no words for our pain.....We know you are with us.....Its just so hard......

I love you my babes.....forever........

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Trip to grandma's......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Yesterday we went to grandma's and we could feel your presence.....Tommy she really loves you and she has not changed at all.....

It is amazing how when we are there your presence is so strong but we know why.....We spent a lot of time there together....

We got to see boots and tiger.....Tiger ran away but boots stay right with us....the picture above is of Boots and Shae.......He always loved her so.....

I love you my babes.....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Christmas is near.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Christmas is near and the thought of you not being here is so hard.....It makes me cry.....I know you are here in spirit......

I see you every once in awhile walking around the house and it makes me so happy....I feel you everywhere I go.....

I love you my babes.....forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik 

Its so hard......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Its so hard without you here.....There are things that I just don't know what to do....Life has not been the same without you here.....

You are the only thing that I know.....I miss you so much.....My heart has an empty hole that will never be filled......

I love you my babes.....forever.......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Christmas is soon.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Christmas is soon.....You are so missed around here.....We want you here so bad.....There is never a moment you are not with us......

We miss you more than anything and we speak your name all the time....It is so hard without you.....

I love you my babes....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Computer crashed.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I did not get to post yesterday due to my computer crashing....Now I have it back and everything is good....

Its the computer you got me so I was devastated.......But its all working now.......I miss you so.....

I love you my babes.....forever......

Your loving wife & kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Be with me......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Please be with me as much as you can......I miss you so much and sometimes I don't know what  to do.....

You are my everything.....Yo showed me life from a different world.....I know what true love is because of you......

You are my babes and I miss you so much.........

I love you......forever.......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Love you......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I love you more than anything in the world.......You are my one and only......You are my heart and soul.....

I know you walk this lonely road with me.....I feel you all around......I constantly feel like you are surrounding me and that keeps me going......

Please help us to keep going on and to bring a smile to our face......We miss you so much.....

I love you my precious babes.....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

You are my light.......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

You are my light......the love of my life......You are my everything......Please guide me to do the right things......

You are my beacon.....You have always been there for me......You always stood by my side....You are my soul mate........

I love and miss you beyond words.......

I love you my babes.........forever........

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Closer to Christmas.......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Closer to Christmas and it is so hard.....I want you here....I miss you so much....My heart is so empty from the loss of you.....

It just doesn't seem fair but I know life isn't.....I am so thankful for the precious time we had together.....

I will always hold you and our memories in my heart....I know you are always with me....I cry a lot about you but I know you already know that.....

I love you my husband.......forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Feeling so lost....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I feel so lost without you here....I just want you to be here....I don't know what to do.....I want to sit and cry all the time...I don't feel like doing anything......

I know I have to for the kids....but I am just saying it is very hard sometimes....I so miss you and want you here.....

I lovey my babes......forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Not long until Christmas.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Its not long until Christmas....I miss you so much.....it does not seem right that you are not here.....You made every holiday so special for me.....

You loved me unconditionally and I loved you the same.....We had and still have the best relationship......

I miss you more than I can express....Tears stream down my face.......Walk with me everyday my babes.....

I love you......forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Book Signing.......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Our book signing went good....We have another one tonight....I know you were there I could feel your presence......

The above picture right is Susie, Myself, and Amy......We had such a good time.....I hope you are proud....Everything I do is for you and the kids......

I love you my babes....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Book signing tonight......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Tonight I have another book signing.....I know you will be there watching it all......I so wish you were here in physical form......

I miss you so very much.....You are my everything....Your mom was here yesterday....She loves you too......

We all miss you so much and always think about you....You are our everything.......

I love you my babes.....forever........

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

How I miss you......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

How I miss you.....No words could ever do it justice......I miss you so much and sometimes I do not know what to do.....

You are my world.....You always have been always will be.....You are the best thing that has ever happened to me....You and our kids......

We miss you so very much.....agony is our middle name......We just wish you were here with us....It is really hard.....

I love you my babes......forever.......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Snow.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

It snowed last night....It is just beautiful......I know you are standing in here with me looking out....It glistens and makes the world look at peace....

You are so missed Tommy....I cry for you and long to hold  you.....You are always on my mind and in my heart......

I love you my babes...forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Snow on the way......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Snow is on the way.....We are suppose to get 3-6 inches......Can't wait to see how much we get.....It has been real cold......

You know I hate the cold weather.....It freezes me to death.....I am constantly cold.....I know you wrap your arms around me.....

I miss you babes so much....You are always on my mind and in my heart.....You will always be my husband......

I love you my babes.....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Book signing....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

We had a great book signing last night.....We are doing two more next week on Tuesday and Wednesday.....

I feel it went very well and I know you were there....I felt your presence....I pray and hope that everything will go my way......

I know with you with me it will.....I try and make you proud....I hope you are....

I love you my babes....forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Cold....and a book signing.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

It is so cold here....Got down to 21 degrees....suppose to be colder tonight...I hate it cause it bothers my breathing.....

I hope everything turns out good for book signing tonight....Susie and I are going to be at Head to Toe Essentials tonight doing the book signing.......

It will be great.....I know you will be there......

I love you my babes.......forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Gonna get cold here......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Its suppose to get real cold here......-15 by Monday.....Oh Tommy its to cold for me...I am afraid of my asthma.....

I know the Creator will protect me.....I know you will be with me to take care of me too.....You are my angel......

I miss you so much....Please always remember no matter what you are my love.......

I love you my babes.....forever.......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Ordered your Christmas present.......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Got you several presents last night at Wal-Mart then the kids found this beautiful present online so we order it....We will always get you presents for Christmas.....

We love and miss you more than anything in the world.....You are with us always.....Our hearts always have you in it.....

I love you my husband....forever.......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Snow on the way......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Snow is on the way.....I write you these letters to heaven and I know you read them.....I miss you so much.....

My heart weeps like the weeping willow.....It is so broken.....I try hard to keep focused and stay as happy as I can.....

I do it for you and the kids......You guys are all that matter to me.....just knowing you are not here hurts so bad........

Please remember.....I love you my babes.....forever.......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Soon to be Christmas....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Soon it will be Christmas.....So hard to believe.....I want you here so bad to share it with you.....I know you are here in spirit.....

You are always with us.....I just miss not hearing your laugh.....I miss not seeing your face.....Even though I have your picture everywhere still not the same.....

I love you my babes....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

My love.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

My love.....you are my everything....You visited me in my dreams....I loved it.....Its always wonderful if you visit me....I really needed that......

You are what makes me complete.....You are my everything.....I love you more than anything in the world.....

You are my what makes me who I am.......I cannot express how much I love you........

I love you with all my heart my babes.......forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Black Friday.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Last night we went to the Black Friday early sale at Wal-Mart.....There were so many rude people I could not believe......

I wanted a good camera they had.....It was hard but I got one of them.....People are so rude.....Erik found some things also......

I know you were there with us......I felt your presence......I miss you so very much......

I love you my babes......forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Happy Thanksgiving in Heaven......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Happy Thanksgiving in heaven.....Oh how I wish you were here......I will make a plate for you today and set it at the table......

In my heart you are here.......You will always be with me....I know you are here in spirit....I know it....I will always set a plate for you.......

You are the love of my life....I know you and your dad are in heaven having Thanksgiving together.....You missed him so much.....

I love you my babes....forever.........

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Missing you......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I miss you so much....Tears roll down my cheeks.......The pain is overwhelming.....I just want to hold you.......

I can feel your presence all around me....I know you are here....I just long for you....Always will.... you are everything to me.......

I love you my precious husband.....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, Erik

Thankful for......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I am thankful for so many things.....First, I am thankful you came into my life.......Thankful that you loved me unconditionally.....

Thankful for our kids.....thankful they are healthy.....Thankful they are close to me and support me......

I am thankful that you will always love me....I am thankful for that you will wait for me.....I am thankful for another day to live......

I love you my babes.....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

I miss you.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I miss you so very much.....You are always on my mind....I cry a lot because I miss you so much.....

You are my light....my everything.....It is so hard during the holidays....I get angered and want you here....

I just miss you babes......

I love you......forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Longing for you....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I long for you everyday....I feel so empty without you.....There are no words to express how truly feel......

I want you here so bad.....that will never change.....I will always miss you.....My love for you will never change.....

You are my heart.....forever.....

I love you my babes......forever.......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Its snowing......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Its snowing here.....It is so pretty.....Never expected this to happen right before Thanksgiving.....The kids are going to love it....

I got up and opened up the blinds and it was falling and meeting the ground causing a beautiful scene......

I am thankful I do not have to get out in it....You  know how I hate to drive in it....You always took care of me and would take me where ever I needed to go....

I love you my babes.....forever...

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Raining.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

It is really raining today and suppose to until Sunday....We will probably get major flooding.....It is something else.....

I feel so alone....It's as of nothing is right anymore....There is an emptiness that I can not explain...A longing for you...

We miss you so much babes....Wish you were here.....

I love you my babes.....forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,

Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Let today be a good day....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Please let today be a good day.....It is so hard without you.....You made everything complete....we love and miss you.....

I know you see what are going through....But I know the Creator will guide and help us....Please let everything be okay.....

Let us be okay health wise, financially, and emotionally.....It has been a hard road.....

I love you my babes.....forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Prayers......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

You know we need prayers right now. Please help guide me on the right path of what to do.....It is going to be a hard road....

Please help us through this and let everything work out....It is so hard for us right now...Please help....

Prayers are needed and I will pray every night....Only the Creator can help us now....It is going to be very difficult now....

I love you my babes....forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Please guide me....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Please guide me...You know what is going on here....It is very difficult and I hope I am doing the right thing....

I know you will be beside me in this and that you will protect us....It is not fair but life isn't is it?

I need you and I know that the Creator will be with me in this time of troubles...He is always with us and guiding us...

I love you my babes...forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

You are my strength......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

You are my strength....I do not know what to do sometimes.....It is so hard and I only can think of you....You always knew.....

I sit here and think about everything.....hard to believe it has been 2 years since you crossed over...I often wonder what you are doing.......

You are always in my heart and I talk to you all the time....You will forever be with me and you are my everything.......

I love you my babes......forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Your visit last night.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Your visit last night showed me so much.....Thank you....I know you are here and that you know about everything that  is going on....

It brought tears to my eyes when I woke up.....matter of fact it made me cry so hard I could barely control myself....but of course you know that.....

I am so happy you showed me that you are always with us....I cannot wait to tell the kids....They will cry but its a good cry and that we miss you so much......

I love you my babes.....forever...come and visit again real soon....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Compassion......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Compassion......Is the having empathy for others.....I have compassion for all people......I hate to see people suffering.....

I hope there are more people in the word with compassion for others....This word is so sad....

I love you my babes...forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Love......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

What does love mean....you taught me that word too......Love is, to me, giving your entire heart and soul to the person you love unconditionally....

That is what I gave to you and you gave back to me....You are my husband and always will be.....

You showed me true love and its meaning.....I miss you my babes......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Honesty......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Honesty......most people know the word but not its meaning.....It is to be honest in everything you do, say, or think......

You taught me that word.....and its meaning.....You were the most honest person I ever knew......You always amazed me.....

Thank you for teaching me what it means.......

I love you my babes.....forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,

Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Learning new things....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Learning new things is something most people dont want no part of......I love it....I love to teach people new things.....

In writing, you are always learning something.....But you know how I am....You are my everything......

There will never be another person like you....You are so special to me....

I love you my  babes.....forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Writing Class today.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

My writing class tonight is going to be fun....I do my presentation and it is over Query Letters.....You know how much I love doing that.....

It seems funny me taking a college writing class but this Creative Writing Class has been so much fun.....

I know you are with me.....

I love you my babes....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik