Please guide me...

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Please guide me in my paths and lead me down the right road.....The journey has been so hard...If only you were here....Everything would be so much better.

How do I know I am doing the right thing....I know you will guide me on my many paths......Please help me to decide what to do......with everything......You are my life and always will be....

There are so many things I am so unsure about....I am so scared at times and unsure if I am making the right decisions.....I pray I am....

I love and miss you my babes.....forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Who your friends are...

My dear precious husband Tommy,

You really do learn who your friends are...I sure have and I know it was you letting me see what to do to learn that...It was unbelievable...I know you were there with me to show me who my friends truly are....

It was an eye opener and I will never forget it....Thank you so much....I miss you so much and there is never a moment you are not on my mind....

I love you my babes...forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

A beautiful day.....

To my precious husband Tommy,

It is a beautiful day....The sun is shining and I have my writing class today....I have a lot of things to speak to the class about....I know that you are with me...I feel your presence.....

I want you here so bad....You are my life and always will be....I think of you all the time...I speak your name.....I know you hear me...

You are my everything...always will be...I know I can come to you about anything.....You listen and guide me in the right decision.....

I love you my babes....forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Days without you....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Days without you are getting harder and harder.....I do not know what to do anymore.....I miss you more than I can express.....

Nothing is the same...Never will be....I want you to know that I miss you and I do not know what to do about it.....Nothing is the same....

You are on my mind all the time....I know you are with me and always will be....You are my husband forever.....

I love you my precious husband....forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Hope......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I have hope that everything will be okay...You know what our problems are and I know you will help me through them...I get upset a lot and I know you see it....

I know you will be with me and make everything okay....I love you more than words can ever say...You are my everything....

I miss you so much and there is never a second you are not on my mind....I want you here so bad....

I love you my precious husband....forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Always wanting you...

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I am always wishing and wanting you here...Life would be so much better if you were...I miss you so much and there is nothing we can do about it......

Tears flow for we want you here....You are missed so much....There are no words to explain how hard it is...I just wish you were here to make everything better....

You are my life and always will be...Please help us with everything going on in my life....You know what they are and please help it all work out....

I love you my babes....forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, Erik

Love is us.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Love is us...That is all I know...You are my everything and I think of you all the time....If love alone could bring you back you would be here now...I love you more than words can express.....

There are only a few people in this word who has a love like ours...We are so lucky to have that kind of love....I am so thankful....

Just wanted to let you know,  even though you already know, that our love is forever....never ending and always the same....full of love for each other....

I love you my precious husband.....forever......

You loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Love you my babes....

I am in the circle dancing for you my husband Tommy...

My dear precious husband Tommy,

My love is forever....no matter you are not here...I know you are here in the spirit form and that is all I need....I am learning to just talk to you and I know you are there...

You give me signs whether it is the lights blinking or a coldness to my skin I know you are there....You always will be I know..........

Our love is forever....I know you love me from the spirit world and please know I love you more than anything....You are my life........

I love you my babes....forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

I am very sick....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I am so very sick....Did not sleep hardly at all...I cried wanting you here beside me...You always took care of me when I got sick....Shae and Erik was taking care of me last night....

I miss you so much...I can hear you say, "I am going to bed you." For that is what you always done...You would put me in the bed and would not let nobody talk to me on the phone or anything...You took such great care of me....

I miss you more than words can say....We had so much to do together.....Its just not fair....I want you here and I cry all the time....I can't help it....I miss you so much.....I have to do this post everyday or my heart would hurt even worse for this way I feel I am having a conversation with you....

I love you my precious husband....forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

I am sick.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I am sick....Coughing, stuffy nose, voice sounds funny.....I hate it but I knew I would get it because Shae has been sick.....

Please help me through this...It is really hard on me because of the mold exposure....I know you will be with me and hold my hand like you always did when I got sick.....

I miss you my husband so very much......I just want you here...You always made me feel better when I was sick. You are my everything....

I love you my husband.....forever.....

Your wife ad kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

What I miss....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I miss you so much. I miss your laugh, your smile, your poking at me. I miss just having you here. I miss sitting and watching TV with you. 

I miss us talking into the wee hours of the morning...I miss having coffee with you...I miss you holding me at night....

I miss your love and your comfort...I miss you more than words can describe. My heart is broken and never to be fixed....

I love you my dear precious husband....forever...

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Life is......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Life is so short and never does one think of when the person you love could no longer be here. You always think that you have a long time together. Then in a blink of an eye they are gone.

I pray that people realize this before its to late. Life is precious and once that loved one is gone then there is no getting them back. Its so sad and unbearable. So I pray that everybody stops and thinks how lucky they are to have each other in their lives. I know I sure know how lucky I was you were in my life and loved me.

Life is short. Live for today and never have regrets if you can understand that no matter what as a family you should stand together and never let nobody break up what you have. I know that is what Tommy and I done. Life is connected to all things.

I love you Tommy...Forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

San Carlos Lake

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Our visit to San Carlos Lake was a time of remembrance for me. It brought back the times we shared it together. I miss you so much.

The pow wow was great. I got in the circle for you. I know you saw me cause you were there in spirit. It was a calming time for me.

We miss you so much. We talk about you and we laugh and cry for the loss of you is so overwhelming. 

We love you.....forever

I love you my precious husband.....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Wishing you were here....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I wish you were here. I have to go to the doctor today. Woke up with my finger hurting and I can hardly bend it. I know you are here I feel your warmth.

Erik  and  Shae

I will be posting pictures of the pow wow and of San Carlos Lake for awhile. You loved the lake so much when we went there. I cried when we went on Saturday because I felt a deep hurt knowing the last time I was there it was with you. I know you were there on Saturday holding my hand. As you can see by the pictures the lake is extremely low. Very worrisome.

Well my babes I love you....forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

San Carlos Pow Wow 2013

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Yesterday we went to the San Carlos Pow Wow. The kids loved it. It was a time of feeling closer to you, especially in the circle. 

It was a time of spiritual healing and I felt your presence with me. You were there in the circle with me. I felt your presence beside me as I dance for you.

Shae and Erik had a good time. We are so lucky to have such great friends there. They are very special to me as they were to you.

Just want you to know that my heart felt good yesterday. I know it was the presence of you and the presence of the San Carlos People. Very spiritual.

I love you my husband...forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

You are my life.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

You are my life...My everything...There is never a moment I am not thinking of you..I miss you so much...You are my every thought....

The kids and me always talk about you..Yesterday for dinner Erik grilled us chicken just like you use too...He was so proud and wanted to know if it tasted like your's....I told him exactly like your  dad's...

Shae agreed and we all smiled...We always talk of you...You are in our hearts where you will remain forever.....

We love you......forever....

I love you my husband....forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Our family....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Our family is so close....You always said we had to stick together...I know that is the most important thing and we have.....Our kids take care of me...watch out for me..just like you always told them to do....

I know you are so proud of them and so am I....They are here for me and always will be...I know you are smiling for you see how we stick together...

You are our rock.....What holds us together..Even though you are not here in physical form we know you are in spirit.....

We love you forever......

I love you my husband....forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Our love is amazing.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Our love is amazing.......It will always be strong.....Nothing can change our love...I wish everybody had the love that we have....

You are the most amazing man I have ever known....You are strong and sure of yourself.....You would give rather than to receive...You are like no other man that I have known....

You are my heart and always will be...You are my everything......Nothing will ever change that....You are the man I will always love....

I love you my husband....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Your love.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Your love is like no other...It shines today as it did when we first met and fell in love. I remember you calling my name...It was beautiful....

The day we met was the best day of my life....You showed me what love was truly about....You never left nothing unsaid....You spoke to me from the bottom of your heart....

I miss you so much and the pain is overwhelming....I wish you were here sharing in everything...I do know you are here in spirit....That is what keeps me going....

I love you my babes...forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

My heart is empty....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

My heart is empty....It mourns for you.....There are never a moment you are not on my mind....You are my everything....

You are so missed....Words cannot express how we truly feel....If only you were here...Our hearts would be so happy....

I know the kids miss you so much.... It's written on their faces...They love you so much.....

I love you so much too my babes....Forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

New Day........

My dear precious husband Tommy,

A new day is dawning and my heart is broken.....I miss you and think of you all the time.....How I wish you were here holding me and assuring me everything is okay.....

I miss you so much....You are constantly on my mind...Oh how I wish I could hold you in my arms and say to you "I love you" but I know you know I do....

I am helping Shae every day with home school..She is on the A,B honor roll.....She is so smart.....I know you are happy that I am here to help her..she needs me I know .....

Erik is doing good at his job...He really likes it a lot.....They make bullets and he really enjoys it a lot....

I love you my babes....forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Our love is forever......Proof in m my dreams

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Our love is forever....You came to me in my dreams, several times last night....It was so great.....It is your way of letting me know you are here.....

I love it when you come to me in my dreams...It's so real and as if you are still here in the physical form....I miss you so much......

There are no words that can express how much I miss you....Its as if a piece of my heart has been ripped out of my soul and taken away.....

You are with me always I know.....

I love you.....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Its snowing....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

It is snowing and so pretty.....Spoke to your mom and we love her so much.....She is a sight as always.....We miss her because we hardly get to see her.....

The snow is falling and its a quiet Saturday....The kids are in the bed and I am drinking coffee thinking of you....as always.....

Well my babes I love you so much and miss you....my heart is yours....

Love you forever.......

Your wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik