I love you.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I love you more and more...The pain of you being gone never fades...Its like a constant jab in my heart...

I know that the Creator was with me during what has been going on and made everything okay.....I know you were standing beside of me....Thank you Creator....

Yesterday I was eating my cheese and crackers....Thank you for moving the bag of crackers to let me know you were there.....

I love and miss you so much....

Your wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Visiting me last night....

My dearest husband Tommy,

Thank you for our visit....Heaven is beautiful....I know you will wait for me no matter how long it takes...I  know the kids need me and I am thankful that I am here for them....

I told Shae what you said and she cried but it was a good cry....

I love you my babes....forever....

Your loving wife,
Melinda

Tommy,

I sit here writing on my mystery novel....I know you are here...I feel you everywhere I go...You know what I am dealing with so please watch over me.....I know the Creator will do what is best....Please let everything turn our fine.....I miss you so much and you are always on my mind.

Yesterday I watched the video of you and Shae when she was born. I am so thankful I have it so I can go look at you and hear your voice....

I love you my husband.....forever.....

Your loving wife,
Melinda

I need you....

Tommy,

I am sitting here missing you so much. Time never heals the pain. Nothing does....You know how my life is going and I really need you now...I have never felt so down...well not in a long time....You were the only thing that could bring me back up...

You know what is going on in my life....All the pain and hurt....It never stops....I need you to take me, hold me, and tell me to let it all go....That I am the most important thing to you.....

I long for you everyday....My pain is the same as it was the night you had to go.....Only you know me and know once I am hurt then its hard for me to get over it....

Please come and visit me tonight in my dreams....tell me what to do.....

I love you and miss you more than words can ever say.....

Your loving wife,

Melinda

Be with me....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Please be with me this week....Let everything go in our favor....Life is so short.....I miss you more than you will ever know...Erik just had his 26 birthday and it was hard without you here...

We celebrated it with grandma....I know you were there and I know you are always with us...We love you so much....

Miss you love you more than words can say.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shaelee, & Erik

Your visit....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Your visit last night was great....It was as if you were here...Oh how I wish you were.....You are so miss.....

I think of you all the time and I wish you were here....I know you visit me as much as you can and I love it.....

I love you my babes....forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

I miss you....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I miss you....even as time passes by it does not change one thing.....I want you here.....

I have been having back problems and I go today for x-rays....Unsure what is going on but I hope they find out soon.....

I wish you were here and I miss you so much.....

I love you babes....forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik 

Please guide and protect us....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Sorry I have not posted in awhile. We moved to another part of AZ and so that is why. I think I will post once a week just to let you know everything even though you already know because you are here with us......

Please protect us from the scorpions...you know how they scare me and Shae.....Please protect us and do not let us get stung....I know the Creator will watch over us........

I love you babes.....miss you.....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Happy Valentines Day in Heaven....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Happy Valentines Day in Heaven.....Going to go buy you a balloon and a rose......Just to send up to Heaven to say I love you always and miss you so much......

Today was our special day and it will always be.....You are always loved by me.....forever.....Nothing can change that......

I love you my babes......forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Calling out your name.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I keep calling out your name....I know why....Cause I love you so much and miss you......It is so unfair that you are gone......

I need you here with me....Life is so lonely without you.....You made everyday so much better for me......

Going to the valley today....keep me safe.....

Please be with me and know I love you babes.....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

You are missed......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

You are so missed....I think of you all the time.....Please know that you are always in my heart......

You are my everything...Always will be.... I will always love you.......Please know that......I know you will wait for me no matter what.......

I love you my babes...forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Guide me......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Please guide me....let me know what and how people feel about me.....Somehow show me if people are not for real......

My heart is good as always.....but you know I have a tendency to think people care about me and then they really don't.....

I know you love me and will show me in some way the people that really care for me.....

I love you always.....and forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Stand by me.......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Please stand by me and guide me...It's so hard and nobody really cares.....Its been rough but I know you will always be with us.....

You are my everything.....My guide.....my light......The Creator truly blessed me with you....Thank you Creator for giving me all that I have......

I love you my babes.....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Missing you.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Missing you more than anybody knows......You will always be my husband and I love you more than anything.....

No matter what happens here on earth......does not change a thing......I love you......You are my soul mate.....always will be......

I love you my babes......forever.......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Things are getting better....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Things are getting better.....We found a house and we will be moving...I am so glad that everything is finally working out.....

It has been a hard road and I miss you so much.....There is never a moment I do not think of you....

I love you my babes....forever.......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Busy today.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I am going to be very busy today with the move and everything.....I know you already know this but I still have to tell you......

I miss you more than anything and I know you will always be with me....Please understand everything and love me always......

I love you my babes.....forever.......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Moving soon....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I know you know we are moving again. Closer to the valley so we can find jobs....It is so hard and I miss you so much.....

I love you more than anything and I wish everyday.....every minute.....every second....that you were here....

I love you my babes...forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Heading to Valley.....Protect us

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Heading to the valley today.....Protect us.....watch over us.....Let it be a good trip.....Sometimes it so hard....I know you understand.....

I miss you Tommy so very much.....Always will.....Please walk this path with me.....Let everything be okay......

I love you my babes.......forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Going back to Valley.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Going to Valley for a couple of days.....I know you will be with me......You are always with me I know and I feel your presence.....

I miss you Tommy so much and please know I will always love you.....No matter what you are my soul mate.....

I love you my babes........forever.......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Sure miss you.......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I miss your more than anything in the world......Life will never be the same and nothing can change that......

I know you will always be in our hearts and you will always be with us in spirit....Its just we will always miss you......

I love you my babes.....forever.......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Moving......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

We will be moving to the valley, more specific Mesa Area....Payson is a dead end......Nothing here....

I really cant wait and please help me to get the house I want....I know the Creator will be with me and guiding me and I still want you to help to.....I know the Creator understands I need your hand in it too....

I love and miss you so much.........

I love you babes.....forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Miss you always......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I will always miss you.....I know you know that.....You are so missed by us and we will never get over it......

You will always be in our hearts.....No matter what you will be right with us always.....You are our angel now and we know you will guide us.....

I love you my babes....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Love.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Love is a four letter word that a lot of people take for granted.....I have seen here while living here in Payson.......

I hope that life is full of love for everyone....I am thankful you gave love to me as I gave to you.....We are one and always will be......

I love you my babes.......forever.......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Love.......

My precious husband Tommy,

Love is all you need when the times are tough.....Life never gets easier....Struggles are always near.....

Love comes in kinds of forms....I know if the world would love more than it would not be so bad here....

I love you my babes.....forever.......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Thoughts.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

My thoughts are always on you......There are times I do not know what to do...I am making decisions and I hope they are the right ones......

I always wonder how you would handle this or that but without you here I feel so alone....The pain hurts so bad.....

I love you more than anything babes....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

How I miss you......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

How I miss you........I long for you......I just wish you were here and everything would be great......I just don't know what to do anymore......

I just wish you were here.....my tears fall heavy......I miss you babes......

I love you my babes...forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Love you.....

Boots

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I love you more than anything in the world......You are everything to me.....My life has changed so much and I miss you.....

If only I had you here......everything would be so much different......You and me was wonderful.....

I love you my babes....forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda Shae, & Erik

Decisions......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I have so many decisions to make and I don't know what to do.....I am so confused and unsure of everything......

I wish that you were here then all of this confusion would cease......you are my love forever......

Please help to guide me and make all the right decisions.....I know you will......

Creator please guide me and walk with me and let everything work out.......Amen.....

I love you my babes....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

How I love you......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

How I love you.....I love you more than anything and I only wish you were here.....Sharing in everything with us.....

I know you are here in spirit but I would love to touch and hold you....Hear you speak to me....Oh it would be so wonderful......

I love you my babes...forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Choices.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Choices.....There is so many to make and not sure if I am making the right ones....It is something else and I do not know what to do.....

You know my struggles so please fix everything and make it right.....You know everything so please help me....

I love you my babes.....forever.......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Hurting inside.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Hurting inside is one of the things that is so hard to deal with......I know you understand where I am coming from....You always understood me.....

I miss you more than anything in the world.....You are my everything.....Always have been.....I don't know how to handle some things babes.....

Guide me......

I love you my babes.....forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Guide me.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Please guide me with all everything.....Show me the way to go.....I am so confused and I need your help.....

I wish you were here and everything would be okay.....You are everything to me......I miss you so much.....

I love you babes....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

I miss you.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I miss you so much.....I want you here....it would make everything so right if you were here....My heart would soar.....

I will always miss you but I know you are with us....You are always.....What choices I make, please let them be the right ones....

I love you my babes.....forever.......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Guide me babes.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Guide me on this that I am dealing with....Show me the way.....Let me make the right decisions....

I know you will always be with me....You are my everything.....I miss you so much....I know you will help me and show me in some way of what to do.......

I know it will all work out....

I love you my babes....forever.......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Sickness still roams.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Sickness still roams in this house....I know you already know that....Please protect Shae and me from getting the flu......

I miss you so much babes....You are my life and always have been.....please guide me in which way I should go......

I love you my babes.....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Flu is in the house......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Flu is in the house.....I am scared I will get....and that Shae will get it........Erik has it and we are scared to death.....

Took Shae to the doctor and she has tonsillitis.......If she were to get flu it will be so bad....Also, if I get it then I will probably end up in the hospital....

Please Creator.....Don't let Shae or me get this flu........I ask you in our heavenly father's name....Amen.....

I love you babes.....forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Everybody is sick....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Everybody is sick in this house....You done know that though, don't you?.....Please watch over us and make everything okay......

Please forgive me for any wrong choices I make.....Please stay with me always.....You are the love of my life.....

I love you my babes...forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

No posts for several days....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I will not be doing your post on here for several days because I have to go stay in a motel room while the mold is removed from the bathroom...I have been so sick from the mold.....

I hope you understand....I have to leave the computer here for Shae and I dont like taking a computer to the motel because you never know if somebody will steal it.....

Just wanted to let you know.......

I love you my babes.....forever.......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

I feel.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I feel so alone without you.......I feel so empty inside.....Nobody can ever understand but you.....There are times I just do not know what to do......

I feel the hole in my heart from losing you.....I try and focus on how our love was and still is.....Strong and unconditional love......

Just know babes...you are my everything.........

I love you my babes.....forever........

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

I am sick.......

My dear  precious husband Tommy,

I am sick as you already know......It is from the mold and I am getting worse......I hope I get better soon.....

I miss you so much and please stay by me....I know you will.....You have always been with me.....You are my everything.....

I love you my babes.....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

My life without you.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

My life without you is so difficult......I don't know what to do.....I miss you so much and I feel an emptiness deep inside......

You are the one who shows me what to do when things are not right......You are the one who always calmed me down.....

You are so missed and will never ever be forgotten......You are my life.........

I love you my babes......forever........

Your loving wife and kids,

Melinda, Shae, & Erik

We miss you......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

We miss you more than anything....There are no words to express it......We speak your name and we know you hear us......

I will not ever get over this.......You should be here with us......I will never understand but I know the Creator has the bigger plan....

Please just walk with us everyday......let us know in some way that you are here........

I love you my babes......forever..........

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Guide me......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I need you to help guide me.......I just don't know what to do anymore.....I am so down and I feel that there is no hope sometimes......

I know you can help me to understand things, I don't know which way to turn.....I know the Creator will always be there for me....

Please just help guide me through......

I love you my babes....forever......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Happy New Year in Heaven......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Happy New Year in Heaven....I so miss you.....Its not good without you here sharing it with me....I stayed home with the kids.....Did not want to go out....no reason for it.......

I know you are here with us......I want you to know there is never a moment I do not think of you....My life is so not right without you.....

I love you more than anything babes....always and forever.......

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik