It snowed last night.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

It snowed last night....Pretty bad too...Right now we have about 7 inches and it is still snowing....It is beautiful but I have to get out in it and I am scared....It will be okay.....

I know you will be with me...I will get pictures and post it on here for you...theses pictures are from last year...I know Shae and Erik are loving it...Erik is going camping in it so please be with him....I am scared of that too....

I am always thinking of you.....You are always on my mind...and in my heart were you will always be....

I love you my husband....forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Memories......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Memories of you are embedded in me forever....I can see everything about you...Your gentle eyes, your gentle soul.....everything about you is in my heart forever.....

I sit and think about you sitting on the couch with me and us talking and laughing......You would rub my feet for me....You took care of everything.....You are my everything.....

Nobody will ever know the man I knew....You loved unconditionally and always stood up for your family....You always knew how to make me stop worrying about things that were out of my control....

I love you my babes...forever.....and miss you the same....

Your loving wife and kids,

Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Another day without you......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Another day without you is so hard for me....I just don't know what to do....Sometimes I think I am going crazy without you...I think about the times we would sit and talk...I miss that so much...We always talked about everything....Made decisions together....

But now I have to make the decisions and sometimes I wonder if I make the right ones....I just miss you...I do the best I can and I think if I was not doing something right you would let me know in my dreams when you visit me...

I love when you visit me....We talk and everything seems to be okay....I mean you are always telling me it will be okay....I trust you and I know it will be....I miss you so much my babes...

I love you more than anything....Forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

I love you my babes.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

I love you babes more than anything in the world.....I want you to be here with me so bad....I know you are with me every moment in spirit....I feel your presence so strong.....

Our kids are just precious...They remind me of you.....They are strong-willed and I see you in them so much......I can see how they miss you too...They love you so much.....

You are my life and that will never change....I miss you so much....It will always be this way for me....Please be with me every day....every second......I know you will stay close to me.....

I love you babes....forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

My precious husband......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

There are no words to express how I feel...My heart is broken beyond repair...I cannot think of nothing else but you...I love you so very much....I want you to be here sharing every moment with me...I know you are here in spirit but its not the same....

I sat and wonder why did this happen? I do not understand.....I just know that we had so much we were going to do....So many things to share....It breaks my heart that if our children have our grand kids then you will not be here in physical form to hold them as we had spoke of...It breaks my heart....But I know you will be holding them and touching them from the spirit world.....

Well my babes I just want you to know I love you forever and you are always with me.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

How our Christmas was.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Our Christmas....The kids loved all their stuff...It was amazing watching them open their gifts...You know how excited they get....I felt your presence here...I know you were watching and laughing at them...

I cried numerous times yesterday thinking of you...I held your favorite shirt in the closet and spoke to you....I know you wrapped your arms around me...You are my everything....You brought me some peace...When I am having a real hard time I speak to the Creator and ask him to bring you to me....It always works....

There is a special picture that will go on here today....We bought you a present...It sits on the mantel....It's a pocket watch and it says "The Greatest Dad" which describes you perfectly....

Merry Christmas in the spirit world and I love you my babes...forever......

Your loving wife & kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Merry Christmas..........

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Merry Christmas in the spirit world my babes......I am so happy because you came to me in my dreams last night....Letting me know you are okay and that you will be with us today and everyday.....

We talked, laughed, and it was as if you were right here.....You held me and told me how much you loved me and it was so wonderful.....My heart is so happy now.....I miss you though.....

I want to say Happy birthday to the Creator....Thank you for all my blessings and thank you for letting me have the chance to love the best man in the world...and him loving me....Thank you for  our wonderful kids, Shae and Erik.....Thank you for providing us a life filled with love, happiness, and prosperity.....

I just want everybody to know who has a loved one in heaven....know they are with you....Never far away...All you have to do is whisper their name and they will be by your side......They still love you and will wait for you to cross over....No matter how long it takes....

I love you my precious husband Tommy.....Forever....Merry Christmas.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Christmas Eve.......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

It is Christmas eve and my heart is empty...I feel a longing for you....I know you are here in spirit but my heart is still broken....I miss us sitting and talking...I have to make all the decisions myself and I hope I make the right ones.....

You are what I always dream of....Your with me all the time...I feel your presence and I just don't know what to do...I want you here so much that my heart gets so overcome with grief.....

Just know that my heart is yours forever....I will hold you in my heart forever......You are the only man who has my heart and that is the way it will always be....When I told you I love you I meant it forever.....

I love you my precious husband....Forever....Merry Christmas in heaven....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Meaning of Christmas....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

The meaning of Christmas to me is love....of our Creator.....The Creator is the reason for everything...He gave us each other....I am so thankful for that....

The world is in total confusion anymore...I pray for the innocent children and adults who died for no reason in CT.....Everybody is suffering in some form. I pray that the Creator lays his hands on us all.....

Christmas is for love and understanding....We need to put the love back into Christmas....Help Mother Earth to come back to life.....

I am thankful for our love and our children....Our bond is forever.....

I love you my precious husband....Forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Our love......

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Our love is like no other....Nothing or nobody could ever stop it....They tried and tried, numerous people did but it did not happen.....We showed them how strong our love really is.....

I wonder about those people now...I hope they learned a valuable lesson...When a love like ours  is so strong and true then leave it alone....I want all those people to know that our love is forever.....and now I know they realize it.....I hope they also realize that what they done was wrong.....

Our love is forever and nothing can change that not even death....We are still one and always will be....I love you now like I have always loved you.....Nothing will ever change that....

I love you my precious husband....Forever.....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

My love for you.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

My love for you is stronger than it ever was....I think of you constantly...I miss you more than words can express......Nobody will ever know or understand our love....

Love is a four letter word used so loosely anymore....When I say "I love you, Tommy" I know without a doubt you knew just how much...Just like when you said it to me I knew how much you loved me.....

There is no love as strong as ours...We gave unconditional love and that is the only love we knew....Our kids even seen how strong our love is......It always will be.....

I love you my precious husband..forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik

Christmas is fast approaching.....

My dear precious husband Tommy,

Christmas is fast approaching and it is so hard.....We miss you so much. The kids cannot wait to open their presents. You know how they always done. 

Today is Shae's last day of home school until January 8th and she is so glad...You know how she hates school just like her dad, huh? I am proud of her. She has a B in Algebra and A's in Science, Music, Art, and History. She took one high school class which is English and she has an A in it....Very proud of her and I know you are too...... 

It does not seem right without you here...It is so lonely and my heart is so broken...I will spend Christmas Eve and Christmas Day with the kids. We will speak your name and miss you so much....

I know you will be here in spirit....You always are...The kids got everything they ask for.....I am so thankful....You will always be with us and we know that...We just miss you so much......I cry for you everyday....But of course you know that....

I love you my precious husband....forever....

Your loving wife and kids,
Melinda, Shae, & Erik